I had the not so great privilege of seeing my doctor last week as a follow up to my surgery.
I was expecting to hear good news, because I thought that the worst part had been over. Instead I found out that the ordeal that I had gone through had not completely addressed the problem.
Hearing this news really took me by surprise. I had spent months in prayer. Friends had spent months in prayer.
God was supposed to answer.
After I received the news, I sat in my car. Overwhelmed with other things in my life, I didn’t really have time to process this bad news.
In fact, all I wanted was to get myself an ice cream blizzard to make all the nonsense go away.
But this was reality.
Out of weariness I found myself praying the only thing I could: “Lord,show yourself strong”.
What do you do when you’ve fought all you could fight and the problem still exists or doesn’t go away as it should?
What do you do when you’ve prayed and prayed and you’re really feeling “all prayed out”?
What do you do when feel as if God has let you down?
In the worst case scenarios, we have to not lose hope, not lose faith, not lose our perspective of who God is.
For a moment, I sat in the car, feeling ready to give up. Perhaps I should just go ahead and have the hysterectomy. Perhaps this was my ‘plot’ in life.
But when the enemy comes in like a flood, we need to know when to raise up a standard against him.
It doesn’t matter how tired we feel, we have to fight back. Fighting back has nothing to do with the way we feel. It is a decision to not let the enemy win.
And so with my weary soul, I began to mutter on my drive home “how great is our God”
I began to remind myself “is there anything too hard for God (Jer 32: 27).
I began to remind myself of all the great victories that He has accomplished in my life.
This was the beginning of me fighting back.
The rest is warfare. I have to charge into the enemy’s camp and take back what God has already given me.
I cannot give in. I know that that’s what the enemy wants. But God’s word is “yay and amen”.
So I will stand on His Word that He came to heal, deliver and set me free from every affliction. I will stand on His word that “By His Stripes I am healed.”
Although the season may not appear to be over in your life, stand on His word, that it will be over.
Although it seems like you are not winning, Stand on His word.
Although you may have received a bad report. Stand on His word.
That He will heal you and deliver you and set you free.